I'm working on it...

Working on a few things at the moment:
- Not relying on other people to make me feel any kind of self-worth. I never knew how much it could affect me when people don't reciprocate the efforts I put into relationships. It's like being rejected, and it feels horrible. So either I let these instances make me feel like crap every time they happen, or I carry on making the effort on my part and try not to be too disappointed when nothing comes back the other way, or I simply make less effort because then I'm less likely to get hurt. And whatever I choose at the time, at least I'm making that decision knowing that God gives me the worth that matters, that he cares what's going on for me and that he will never let me down like humans so often do!
- Related to this is the idea of adjusting my attitude, so that even when I'm down or discouraged I can see a way out. I'm trying to focus on what really matters rather than dwelling on things that are only going to make me feel worse. I've recently become rather cynical and negative about so many things, but I need to try and turn those around and get back to the real me who is so much more positive and optimistic.
- Living in the moment. I remember a guest lecturer in one of my courses this semester making the point that if you're really present in a moment then anxiety cannot exist. Neither can anger. Because you're focused on the here and now. So, that may not be entirely practical or possible, but I can definitely see some value in what he was saying.
- Making more time for God. I know this is a cliche goal, but I also know it has to happen. I have been shocking lately, but whenever I do make the time, I am so glad I have and always vow to do it more. Chatting with him throughout the day, involving him in all of life and sometimes just sitting in his presence make a big difference to how I act, cope, respond, think and feel. So why would I not want those improvements in my life?

Now comes the big task of deciding what to do with my near future... ugh. There are so many options! But at least I'll be in a bit of a better state of mind once I start sorting some of those things out. It's exciting, and it's scary. Bring it on.